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Just Play with it

It is a happy talent to know how to play.

Ralph Waldo Emerson
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For the past couple of weeks I have been hearing different people telling me to “Just play with it.” The concept is interesting.

A friend showed me some Budokon moves and I practiced them with him for a bit. Then he told me to play around with it in the grass. Another friend showed me some primal movement and said the same thing. You may be thinking to yourselves “Oh that isn’t such a big deal.” However, to me, it was a big deal.

I was shocked at how I couldn’t play with it. There was a barrier, a hesitation to do whatever came naturally. I couldn’t follow my instincts because I did not know what they want me to do. I have been detached with my playful inner child that I had no idea how to play around in the grass. It felt awkward.

I have noticed how when we are kids we are present in the moment. Kids just play around. They have a pure heart. They fight and then they make up the next second and continue playing. To kids nothing else matters. All that matters is what is happening in the now.

As kids grow up they are conditioned. They are conditioned by parents, by the teachers in the school, by the media and by society. They are taught to act a certain way, to talk a certain way, to play a certain way, to eat a certain way and to dance a certain way. They are taught to live life a certain way.

Then as those kids turn into adults and start working, they realise that they aren’t happy. They aren’t happy because they are living life in a way that does not align with their true selves. They are living life the way that they were taught rather than the way they naturally want to. They are taught from a young age that once you get a job you’ll be happy. Once they do get a job, they start questioning life. What more is there to life? What do we do next?

All we then try to do is go back to being kids. The idea of playing in the grass is exciting to us. We start trying to try things out that make us happy. We try yoga, we try dancing, we try playing sports, we try working out or we go on adventures.

What we fail to realise is that we used to do all these things when we were kids. When we weren’t conditioned. All these things come naturally to kids. When you are living in a way that aligns with your natural instincts to live life, you are automatically happy. There is less resistance and you are more content.

Embrace the inner child within you. Let that child come out and play. Let that child hold the reigns to your life and have some fun.

The Life I want

And into the forest I go to lose my mind and find my soul.

John Muir
Me – Taken by a Friend

I have not written in a while because I have been enjoying life. I have been busy with living. I have been living from moment to moment. The person in the picture you see above is me. That is who I want to be 24/7. I am glad a friend of mine chose to step out of the moment and capture me in the moment. I have my hair doing its natural thing. I am in a relaxed state. I am connecting with people which I absolutely love. I am part of something real.

A couple of us decided to meet before sunrise and go to the desert to just enjoy the moment. It was amazing. I was totally disconnected from my life. Rather, I should say I was totally connected with life. I was just there in the present…aware of nothing else but what surrounds me. At that moment all that mattered to me was connecting with the people and the environment around me.

I feel like connecting with the environment is something that we as humans do not value enough. To be at one with nature. Without any distractions. Just totally present in the moment. Nature has a way of providing that for us. It has a way of demanding our attention and presence. It makes you forget. All you have to do in nature is exist, which is all you can do anyways. In return, nature will take over because well that is its nature. As confusing as that sounds, think about it.

This picture is going to be an inspiration for me. I am going to use that picture of myself to drive myself to get the life I want. I am going to push myself to live the way I want to. In order to live the life I want I need to setup ways of generating a passive income. Sadly, that is the world we live in. A world in which you cannot live without money. Money that enables you and allows you the freedom to live however you want.

In order to do so I need to discover what drives me. I need to figure out what I’m passionate about. That’s what life is all about, Experiences. Living life to its fullest potential and experiencing as many things as possible is what life is all about. That’s my take on it anyways.

There is one thing I am certain of; I want to be the Ammar you see in the picture. I will do whatever I can to achieve that lifestyle.

Surrender To Life

Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react to it.

Charles R. Swindoll
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Complete Surrender. That is how I try to live my life, in complete surrender. I try to surrender to life. I try to surrender to love. I try to surrender to the universe. I try to surrender to the environment. I try to surrender to what may be happening to me.

As we live life we come across many things that affect us. We often find ourselves worrying about the future and contemplating on the past. While it is good to have a plan for the future, we tend to live in the thoughts of the future.

I went to a Tai Chi class for the first time. I have wanted to do Tai Chi since the day I found out that in the TV Show Avatar The Last Airbender, the movements for water bending is based off of the ancient Chinese martial arts of Tai Chi. I love water bending because of it’s healing properties so naturally when the opportunity came to try it I couldn’t say no.

Tai Chi is all about the breath. It’s about relaxing. It’s about letting go and flowing with what comes towards you. I just flowed, with whatever was happening. I was in a state of tranquillity. I was relaxed.

I was reminded by how I want to live my life, in complete surrender. I will only worry about the things within my control. The things that I do not control, do not warrant any attention or effort from me. We are not going to spend our time thinking about that. We are going to spend our time, energy and efforts on what we do control.

We are going to focus on the now.

I control my actions. I control my work ethic. I control me. I cannot control anything outside of me so why bother?

Does this person like me? Will I get this job? Will I do well in my exams? I do not have control over all the factors that will affect these decisions.

All I can do is control my own vibe and let things flow. Whatever will happen, will happen. I can only hope for the best.

We are constantly reacting to whatever happens to us. That’s all that we can do.

Relax. Breathe. Let go. Channel all of your energy into yourself. Enjoy Life. It’ll all be fine.

We got this far. Don’t worry. We’ll also get to where we need to go.

Love Yourself

If you don’t love yourself, how in the hell are you going to love somebody else?


Amen to that!

I tend to trust people, 100%, completely. Most of the time, when I meet someone I will go in with complete surrender, no expectations and accept whoever they are. Unless I get a really bad vibe, I tend to get along with everyone. There’s a part of me that loves to connect with people. I’m hoping I get to connect with some people through this website and maybe in the future through all the other things that I’ve got planned.

One of my favourite ways to connect with people is by finding out their favourite colour, listening to the music they like or watching a T.V show or movie that they have recommended. This got me into RuPaul’s drag race. Now as a straight male I had no idea I would like the show as much as I did. Sure, I dislike Santino (Santiago) Rice but the show had such a positive message about accepting yourself the way you are.

We need more positive messages like this and this is one that I had realised as a child. If I was not happy with my own company then how are other people going to be happy when they are with me?

If I don’t love myself, then how are other people going to love me?

Realising that is the first step towards actually beginning to love yourself. You want to love yourself. You know what you don’t love about yourself, the things that are in your life that you don’t resonate with. The things that don’t make you happy. All that you have to do is get to work now.

Experience different things in life and find out what resonates with you. The things that resonate with you will automatically change you into your true self and in return you will love yourself. Obviously it has taken me a long time to get here and I’m oversimplifying it but it is that simple. Break it down into smaller, little, manageable tasks and you’ll start to notice the change within yourself.

Obviously you don’t have control over everything in your life. No one does. Focus on the things that you DO have control over and slowly but steadily you’ll get there.

A lot of us, including me, have struggled with the image of yourself. Speaking personally, I was a very fat kid for most of my life. There were a bunch of problems that led me to overeat and in return become fat. I grew up in a scarce mindset mentality. We had enough food on the table and there wasn’t a night where we slept hungry. In fact we were very well taken care of by my parents.

However, as a kid, anytime there is a shiny object you or something new you want it. We used to go out to eat Pizza Hut once a month. My brother and I would always look forward to this. We’d starve the whole day and prepare ourselves for the long awaited Pizza Hut dinner. We’d get one large pizza, a salad and drinks. 8 slices, 4 family members. Everyone gets 2 slices each. Those 2 slices were heavenly. We would make them last for as long as we could. We’d eat the crust first, then pick the toppings and savour them after which we would finish the slice. Pure Joy.

Mom would make lasagne at home. I remember hating the concept of lasagne but once I took that first bite I was all in. She would make one dish. 4 slices, 4 family members. When you grow up in that mindset you tend to develop a habit of eating very fast in the hopes that you could some extra leftovers. Mom was great though. Like they say A mother always knows.

She would always give us her toppings or a bit of extra food from her plate just to make sure my brother and I always had enough. She sacrificed her desires for us. Obviously she wanted to eat that slice of pizza or cake but she would give it to us because she loves us.

However, when you develop that habit to eat as fast as you can you tend to eat unconsciously. You tend to not chew your food properly and eat more than required. You haven’t given your body enough time to relay the information that the stomach is full to your brain and in return you over eat.

Kids are cruel because they are honest. Being a fat kid is never easy. When you get bullied at school and come home to 2 tired parents you tend to find comfort in whatever way or form you can. Food became that comfort for my brother and me. We over ate because we felt happy and satisfied. We over ate because at that point nothing else in the world mattered. All that mattered was me and my food.

There are so many more issues that I have had to deal with in the past but the point of the over eating story is that I realised that life is so much more than just food. I realised that I do not need to love myself by overeating. Overeating actually made me hate myself. It’s this vicious cycle that you get sucked into. You hate yourself for being fat so you eat more to find comfort which in return makes you fatter.

My life truly changed when I realised that I do not need people to have a good time. It changed when I realised I don’t need food to have a good time. All I need is myself. I started to get to know myself and what do you know, turns out I’m actually not that bad. Once I started to love myself the over eating got under control. I realised that when I started to experience different things in life and listen to my feelings, I quickly discovered the things that bought me true joy.

Sure I still have negative thoughts but when you’re in a better place you tend to have a clearer perspective on those negative thoughts and so can deal with them in a much better way.

I know it’s tough, believe me I’ve been there. All you need is a bit of faith in yourself and I guarantee you, you can do it. If it helps hit me up, I’ll be here for whatever you need. If you want somebody to vent to, I’m your guy. If you want a different perspective, I’m you dude. Hell I’ve seen enough of RuPaul’s drag race that if you need some fashion advice hit me up. I am 100% confident I’ll do a better job than Santiago.

Love yourself. You are worth it.

P.S – Fuck Santiago