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Am I Gay?

I hate the word homophobia. It’s not a phobia. You’re not scared. You’re an asshole.

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Hear me out. I am not attracted to dick. Never in my life have I been attracted to dick. However, here’s a thought. Now entertain me for just a minute and you’ll see where I’m coming from.

I believe that people who are Gay or part of the LGBTQ community are real. They are the way they are. It is not a choice. It is what they feel. It is real. Now, as established by my previous blog posts, I have not been in an intimate situation ever.

Now what if instinctively I am gay but I have yet to figure that out? What if I find myself in a position where my instincts take over and I am gay? I could be in a room with a shirtless Henry Cavill. He towers over me. How confidently can I say that I will not let him embrace me in those welcoming arms? How confident am I to say No Mr. Cavill, I do not want to sleep with you?

I don’t know.

Maybe when that instinct takes over I might sleep with him. At the moment I would say no but I am not in that situation. There is no emotional connection. I am not overwhelmed by all the emotions that would come up in an intimate situation whether that is with a man or a woman.

Let me try to explain it in simpler terms. Now before you ostracise me, this is how it works in my head so try not to take it personally.

Now, if you were to ask me if I was to steal money I would reply with a resounding “Hell Naw.” However, what would actually happen if I was in a situation that tempted me to actually steal money. What if the conditions were different? If there was a million dollars in the middle of the street would I take that money for myself or report it to the police? If I took it is that considered stealing? What if I was under crippling debt? What if my family was starving at home? What if I had no home and lived on the streets?

Likewise, what situation would turn me gay? Would a kiss count as me being gay? How charming is Ryan Reynolds in real life? How long has it been since I have been in a relationship? Do I immediately vibe romantically with Ryan Reynolds? I don’t know the answer to these questions.

Let me try to explain it in another way.

As a kid there were plenty of things we did not like. I did not like eating lasagna and pizza. Now lasagna and pizza are my favourite foods. Using the same logic, until I try some dick I don’t know if I am gay or not. I have only ever played with one dick and I enjoyed it. My dick is gorgeous. I love it. How do I know I will not enjoy the experience without giving it a try? Life is all about experiences. Maybe this is one that I need to have.

 Now before you ride my dick (see what I did there?) I want to clarify that this is another attempt at being funny. I don’t fully understand what being part of the LGBTQ community is like and what they go through in life.

All I know is that no one is going to risk getting persecuted, discriminated against, abused and killed if what they felt was not real. We need to stop diminishing their struggles and acknowledge them. We need to provide them with a safe society and community to live in. We need to learn to love one another. To understand that reality comprises of everyone’s realities not just your own.

Learn to understand each other. Learn to love each other.

P.S Irrespective of how you feel about the LGBTQ community you have to acknowledge one thing, THEY ARE FABULOUS. I don’t care what you think about them, you cannot deny this fact. All you need to do is watch RuPaul’s drag race to understand what I am talking about. The drama, the dresses and the style are all amazing. Check out Courtney Act’s IG account and tell me that she is not impressive. It still amazes me how that is actually a man.